I love being in front of the camera. That sounds really arrogant, right? I know but it’s the truth. No, I don’t think I’m the most beautiful person in the world, not even close but I’ve learned to love myself and that was a journey. I also think the camera and I have a pretty good relationship. I would love to be a model, but when I google types of models, I don’t fit into any of the categories.
I am not tall; I’m actually pretty short, 5’2 to be exact. I’m not thin or plus sized; I’m somewhere in the middle with a pouch. I’m not glamorous, fit, a child or mature. But I do have pretty nice skin, a caramel complexion, a pretty smile, a nice shaped BALD head, I’m smart and I’m confident. So I’ll probably never end up in Vogue or on someone’s catwalk but for some reason I always end up in front of a camera.
It could have started with my baby pictures. I was a cute, chunky baby. Or perhaps it was nude photos I had taken years ago. Where are those anyway? Or maybe it started with this….
That was a picture taken at my graduation from Cabrini College for my Master’s degree 4 years ago. I remember a photographer coming around and snagging pictures but the real shocker came when I received a phone call from a friend saying that they just saw me on the L-train. I knew I hadn’t been on the L-train that day so I was confused. Then they told me, my picture was on a billboard advertisement for Cabrini. I contacted the school and had them send me a copy. That picture was on their billboards and on pamphlets. For months, people would call me saying that they saw my picture.
A few weeks ago, a friend of mine passed on some information about a tv channel that was looking to interview some people of Qatar. So of course I responded and a few days later the crew was at my flat conducting the interview. The interviewer asked me questions about my life in Qatar and allowed me to speak about Alopecia and my blog. The interview went well, but I beat myself up afterwards because there was so many other things I wanted to say. Isn’t this always the case; you think of things you coulda woulda shoulda said afterwards? But it was too late and well, what’s the point of crying over spilled milk. He said he would contact me once all the editing was completed and the interview was posted.
Today on my 6th wedding anniversary I got the message. The interview is posted. Please check it out using this link. QatarnaTV
Everything that was said was my exact words, but it comes off a little different than my intentions especially at the end, when I said “I don’t plan to return to the U.S. anytime soon.” It is true that I don’t intend on moving back to live in the U.S.A any time soon, , but it’s not because I plan on living in Qatar forever either. I plan on exploring other places. And when the time is right to leave here, I’ll move someplace else. I’ve learned so much from living abroad, I want more experiences like this. I will always love my home country of the U.S.A and will always visit.
My friend Nazma, the Henna artist, did an interview for Society magazine November 2017 edition (The First Family Magazine in Qatar) a few days ago and she posted a copy of the article on facebook. And who’s big head took up a whole page, MINE! Here it is in all it’s glory.
You can also read the article here. Society Magazine
So my head is famous and now so is my face, a little bit. I have another interview coming up this week with Nazma on Al Jazeera. Wish me luck!
Honestly I would love to be the first internationally recognized alopecia model and travel the world as an activist and a bold, fierce model. I would love to be the face of alopecia all over the world, to encourage other women to not let a lack of hair define them, but to recognize their natural beauty inside out.
Who knows, maybe one day, I will create a new type of model. For now, I’m leaving my footprints in the middle eastern sand.